The Seahorse and The Butterfly

Many years ago, I was asking my brother for a sign from the spirit world that he was still around. It had been a few years since I’d had an amazing initial contact, one of which was the time I saw Doris Stokes. A decade along, things had been pretty quiet, so I reached out for him once again, asking for a sign. Before he had died, he had worked as a fisherman and found a tiny seahorse caught in the nets. He had it gold plated for his girlfriend. I thought the seahorse was a pretty good sign, yet I kept this to myself.

One day shortly after, I was walking on a beach near Newcastle in early 2002 with a friend who did aura photography. He looked at me and said ‘I’m just going to take a walk up here’ and off he went, wandering among the sand dunes. About 10 minutes later we caught up again and he said to me ‘close your eyes I have a surprise for you’. I closed my eyes, and when I opened them he had placed in my hands a large seahorse about a foot long! I couldn’t believe my eyes!! What were the chances of that happening? I jumped for joy and then relayed to him the story of my brother and how I’d been asking for a sign.

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This was no ordinary sign to me, it was a massive significant one! After that, I literally bumped into seahorses, patterns on towels, signs on cars, plaques on the walls of gift shops everywhere I went. When I was in Monaco, I decided to visit the Jacque Cousteu museum. I paid my fare and excitedly walked in, took some stairs down into a darkened room and the very first aquarium I came to was filled with seahorses. I literally stood there and cried, mesmerised by their eloquent beauty and thanking my brother for the guidance.

So when my mum passed over, I thought our sign would be a red rose, as that was her favourite flower and colour. Yet, nearly every time, I am speaking about my mother, a large butterfly will cross my path. Recently I was on the phone to a friend who  asked me ‘so how old are you this year?’  I literally said ‘God knows how I got to be this age! I’m nearly 58!’ when a massive butterfly came out of nowhere and flew directly at my face!  Another day I was waiting for my sister to arrive and decided to sit outside in the winter sunshine. I sat for about 10 minutes when suddenly a butterfly appeared, fluttering her wings and sat beside me on a blade of grass.  I was watching it with the curiosity of a child and right at that moment my sister’s car pulled into the driveway.

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I have friends who would pass this off as pure co-incidence. Fair enough. That is their journey and opinion.

It has happened too many times for me to pass it off as inconsequential. I view it as the world of spirit sharing, coming close to us in the only way they can via other creatures… They come in on signs hoping that we will notice them.  It gives us the opportunity to pause, reflect, smile and say hi. Notice your signs.

Til next blog, stay safe and happy,

Loni xx

 

Spirit nudges

time will mark his passing. Even tho its now over 35 years and my memory has faded – ‘he’ didn’t want me to forget… Bless ya mick. Love you and miss you as much as ever, your kid sis. xx

Recently I went away for a couple of days of prayer, peace and mediation. Entering the silence is a sacred thing I’ve recently enjoyed doing. I used to be busy all the time, always on the go, but lately, slowly I realise the need for quietude and reflectiveness. In fact, it is now becoming a pre requisite. Time for my soul and spirit, guilt free indulgence. Anyway, on the second day there,  I decided to go get a book from the communal bookshelf. As I picked one at random I smiled when I realised who the author was. Ram Das. Haven’t seen his name for about 40 years, loved his other book Be Here Now.

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So, I held his book in my hands, said a prayer and selected a page at random. Imagine my surprise when my eyes gazed on the third line…. and read the name ‘Leary’. My brother (Mick, who is in spirit world) surname is Leary!

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I couldn’t believe it. What are the chances that I would select a book at random, turn to a page at random and there is my brothers surname staring at me !! I began to chuckle. How intelligent is the spirit realm. This was no co-incidence.

‘Why is he coming through?’ Oh wait a minute, it’s APRIL…. His anniversary.. I quickly grab my calendar to check the date and yep, sure enough, in a few days Wow.

Speechless.

Why juice cleanse?

Pros .. Oh man, getting rid of sh… in your body is fan -damn -tactic. I know people don’t normally talk about such things but as a naturopath once told me its the first thing her family talk about each morning LOL (true story – she wrote a book called the Pooh in You)… Look it is a necessary part of healing as my dear mum used to tell me ‘all disease starts in the bowel’.  If you think about it, well, it needs regular flushing.

Moving on, energy…. loads of energy after day 4. You experience a feeling of lightness of being and mental clarity like never before. Its so worth doing for this benefit alone.

My daughter was able to:  lower her Trig (bad cholesterol) count from 6 – 2 after a 7 day cleanse, lose weight and  stabilise her blood sugar (she was recently diagnosed with type 2 diabetes).

Juice cleansing is the easiest way I have found to detox, giving your internal body a much deserved rest and a thorough clean out. What a way to start a new chapter!

                                         

An Easter Cleanse

I am beginning to love juice fasting. The feeling of clarity after those first days, the shape of your belly shrinking and wonderful deep sleeps at night. Yet there’s no pain without gain right?  And I need to be brutally honest. Hunger pangs, headaches and persistent mental fog for the first days may have questioning ‘what have I done?’ No where on this planet is it more true than the saying ‘mind over matter’.  For many people going without food is something they truly feel they can’t do, but I say challenge that thought. Even if only for one 24 hour period, give it a try. It is a start and maybe next time you will manage a 3, 5  or 7 day cleanse. Believe me, the benefits outweigh the initial discomfort.

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So instead of hot cross buns, chocolate eggs and partying with friends,  I chose to slow things down (meaning I stay indoors on day one so I’m not tempted to break the fast). You need to be prepared! There’s a bundle of fresh veggies to buy, a dozen litres of filtered water and the main fruits I add are green apples and watermelon. There is a lot of conflicting information out there. I’ve had friends look at me in horror and say ‘not watermelon – its full of sugar!’ Yet when I researched it, watermelon is in the lower 10 sugar fruits – strawberries were the lowest, and red apples in the higher range which is why I choose green apples. I also have fresh ginger and plenty of lemons on hand. This cleanse we have decided to add a soup broth to also sip on, the flavour is different and the warmth makes you feel like your devouring something wholesome.

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Why juice cleanse? Basically, to give your digestive system a rest. Our bodies work tirelessly day in and day out. By avoiding roughage for a period time your body can get to work cleansing and healing from the inside (if it’s not spending its energy digesting). By day 4 – 5 you will honestly feel incredible. The tricky part it, you have to get through days 1 – 3 in order to begin reaping the benefits.

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The benefits are: weight loss, sparkling skin and eyes and oh la la energy plus. I can’t tell you (yet) if I’ve lowered my cholesterol because I’ll need a blood test, but my daughter’s triglycerides dropped from 7.8 to 2 after our last 7 day juice cleanse! Look, it’s pretty hard to do juice cleansing alone, so much easier if you have a pal to walk the journey with. We spend those first couple of days complaining about our headaches and it’s so good to flop into bed when you need to.

On the up side, we are there to encourage each other when one wants to cave into a food craving. Believe me, you will reap some amazing rewards and feel incredible at the end of it, so much so, that I’m committed to doing a cleanse every 2 – 3 months.

Wanna join me next time?

 

Synchronicity and loving ones self.

You never know what’s around the corner. I often get asked about synchronicity or co incidence and why we have to learn lessons?  I’ll recap a incident that happened recently. Intuitively I felt it was time to leave Albany, it was my past and although there are aspects and people that I still love there, it wasn’t the place for me. As I jumped on the bus heading to Perth I was thinking ‘what’s next?’ and boarded the train to Fremantle. After several minutes a lady sat next to me with her headphones on. I looked at her a couple of times, but respecting her need to chill out, gazed out the window. Just before my station she looked at me, removed her ear phones and asked ‘where are you going?’

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‘To the buddhist centre’ to which she replied smiling ‘I live opposite there, I’ll give you a lift if you like.’ Now, anyone who has ever travelled alone lugging suitcases around knows being offered a lift is equivalent to winning lotto. Ok, maybe not first division but certainly up around Div 3. We met for lunch a few days later, then coffee, and breakfast the following weekend. Imagine my surprise when it turned out she was not only struggling with a marriage breakdown but also the loss of her brother to suicide.

And this is my point. Who better to hang out with than someone who has endured the same experiences? Was that synchronicity or co-incidence? I don’t believe in co-incidence so imagine the magic of the Universe to create that experience? Where two souls meet in divine timing to help one another on this journey of life.

Silver Birch speaks about the difficulties of life’s journey and overcoming setbacks, grief, break ups, loss etc are all lessons that slowly build us up from the inside to make us strong. I have a problem I deal with yearly in my own life yet I also know, without a shadow of a doubt that this experience has helped me become emotionally strong! I never realised before how fragile I was, emotionally, around my kids. Through dealing with this issue, it’s given me a stronger compassion for people who lose children.

I now reflect on my long term relationships and see how much I have grown as a soul especially, emotionally. I can now stand on my own two feet, no longer am as one counsellor told me, ‘learned dependancy’ and recognise situations where I’m tempted to give my power away. I needed those hard tough years with men who were controlling and domineering, whom I continually gave way in order to have peace at any cost. Why? Because this was the emotional environment that I grew up in. I had to revisit it in order to learn and grow out of it. There is no weekend workshop crash course dealing with a souls journey and the lessons it has chosen to learn. We are all so individual.

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I have also learned that I can no longer be in a personal relationship with someone who has not done their inner work. There is a lot going on ‘within’ and the longer you pretend it doesn’t exist, the more potent it is. A psychologist friend used to tell me ‘you gotta know what’s likely to bite you’.  I now view my past so called ‘failures’ with a air of gratefulness, the abuse I had to experience in order to rise above it and escape that low vibration.  I needed to know what love wasn’t in order to learn what it was. And the best way to do that was to take tiny steps towards loving myself, step by step, day by day.

Warts, white hair n all. xx

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Being ok with the uncomfortable.

I was reading an article the other day about the lizard brain and how it is geared for our survival. Survival, not change. It’s why so many of us stay in out moded relationships that no longer serve us, or abusive ones that we feel stuck in and why we cling to jobs that undermine us, why we stay put rather than seek change. This has helped me understand so many of my past situations in life. The funny things is, life is full of change, its the only thing we can ever really count on (besides death and taxes) as it creeps along side us daily and sometimes hits us wham bam, when we least expect it.

Recently as I listened to someone tell me a story about a friend who got upset every time they drove to town behind an older (slower) driver,  I chuckled,  ‘jeepers if that’s all it takes to piss them off they would never survive in a city.’

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Its why I love shows like ‘I’m a celebrity get me out of here’  as they place contestants in uncomfortable situations which most of us are quietly fascinated by, watching their reactions, wondering how we would react in similar circumstances? I mean, if someone wanted me to bungy jump or jump out of a plane I don’t know what the hell I’d do, but give me a back pack and a few hundred $, I know I could survive travelling anywhere.

Knowing our survival brain craves comfort and familiarity, it stands to reason why we resist change so much. Why we cling to the known routes even though intuitively we are bored, there is little growth present and we long to go on an adventure. The reality is, if we step out into the great unknown, we are on unfamiliar ground. Anything could happen.

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And usually things DO happen. Yet if we believe that the Universe has our back (always) then what is there to fear? Sure, there will be a period of discomfort while we readjust out inner compass but as far as I can ascertain, we are always led to something far greater than we ever imagined. Staying calm is the key to navigating past our fears.

Researching for this blog I came across a great article called ‘How to make friends with your reptilian brain’ by Edwina Shaw.

“When we are living in a constant state of fear and stress we’ll keep working at a job we hate; we’ll do things we’re not proud of to get the sex we need, we’ll forget our childhood dreams, and the urges of our higher selves, because it’s all way too scary.”

I myself, like being at the edge of my comfort zone. Even though sometimes the mere challenge of finding a new place to live, organising finances, setting up again in a new city can feel overwhelming at times, I know if I stay calm, go within and consult with my inner well of tranquility –  all is well.

I also love this quote by Seth Godin

The lizard brain is the reason you’re afraid, the reason you don’t do all the art you can, the reason you don’t ship when you can. The lizard brain is the source of the resistance.”

 

 

Choices choices, so many choices…

Sometimes theres just too many choices and by the time I finish thinking about the pro’s and cons of all of them I’m totally confused.  Shall I stay here…. head up north to do Help X, go back to Sydney, (lots of nanny work there) buy a camper van, take off O/S and go live where it’s cheap, like Vietnam or Thailand. I could even teach English there. (Hmm, I don’t like being over the other side of Australia when my daughter lives in Bris so Vietnams probably out).

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Now whilst I want to be completely fearless, my practical voice constantly reminds me that being a member of the physical world, I need moolah to live on. Unless of course one day I may no longer have to worry about such matters IF I happen to be the one in a zillion who wins Division One – heck even div 2 will do …  (Tell her she’s dreamin). 

The one thing  I AM passionate about these days and want to continue studying is mediumship (while I dream about heading to the UK to study at the AFC.)  Recently I had dinner with a new friend and her hubby and had forgotten how bloody great it feels to hang out with people who get the medium world. We could just be ourselves, no need to sensor what we were explaining because we were all on the same wavelength. I also came across it recently with a couple of new girlfriends in Albany town 🙂 and yes, I miss my medium buddies in Qld and Sydney too….( don’t wanna leave anyone out…)

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I often remind people to go within, to sit in the silence, to listen to their intuition, that so many of us have trouble hearing. And I am aware that even the teacher becomes the student because when I’m in my mind – pondering on all these choices I have before me, how on earth am I going to be able to tune into my intuition? Its virtually impossible.

So lately I’ve been announcing to myself ‘listen up, today your not going to think about anything! Go to the beach, take a swim, clear your head young lady.’  It’s the only way I can get a reprieve from my ever questioning mind who wants a decision now, and wants to know what’s going to happen in 3 months time – assurances where there is none.

Our minds need space, peace and quiet in order to tune in.

The life of a gypsy is not a straight line. Neither is it predictable.
But, I’m kinda glad about that.

Keeps things interesting.

Til next blog….

 

 

 

 

Breaking the cleanse while adventures beckon…

I suddenly realised I haven’t detoxed simply from processed food (AKA crackers, bread, the odd chocolate for being ‘good’), dairy (ohhh cheese, fetta, how I love thee….) BUT Ive  had a detox from the evening news. Ignorance IS bliss.  I have absolutely NO idea whats happening in the World or in politics and to be perfectly honest I couldn’t give a toss. This detox has taken my awareness to another level and I couldn’t be happier.

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After day 3 of the juice cleanse my energy returned with a vengeance. I began to spring out of bed at 5.30 am, and was amazed at this change in my energy levels. I fell in love with local beautiful parks and was mesmerised by this tree.  Look at its majesty! 40 years ago I was mesmerised by a tree only if I’d smoked something green or eaten a mushroom of the magic variety. 🙂 If there’s nothing else that inspires you about this blog, I hope the above paragraph does. Get a juicer. (Or pull it out from out of the cupboard)! Don’t make excuses. Your life is precious. For those of us in our 5th and 6th decade, we have more time behind us than in front.  Nourish yourself from the inside and reap the benefits. P.S. One veggie juice is better than no veggie juice 🙂

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The reason for my sudden burst of energy is that during stage 2 of the cleanse (days 3 – 7) fats are broken down. Ketones are formed which suppress the appetite. The digestive system has a lovely rest whilst your amazing body begins the cleansing process on the organs and lungs, expelling toxins. Incredible. I have a whole new respect for Joe Cross the guy who juiced for 60 days. Highly recommend him –  www.joecross.com

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As I stood by the waters edge watching my daughter swim and frolic in the waves  just as she did nearly 3 decades earlier,  a wave of deep gratitude washed over me. I honestly, 100% felt incredibly fortunate to live in such an amazing country. We have no wars. We are SAFE. We enjoy gorgeous beaches, rivers and bays, wide open spaces, amazing national parks and glorious night skies. We have an abundance of choice surrounding us, fantastic restaurants, funky cafes with vegan alternatives to a meat burger and fresh farmers markets selling a wide range of wholesome and organic foods.

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I arrived in Brisbane 34 years ago, with a stroller, a 12 month old son and a suitcase. I had no idea how things were going to pan out… but there you go. Somehow they did! How blessed and grateful I feel for all the lessons, twists and turns, the joys, the challenges. Those magical moments of synchronicity where you have an ‘aha’ moment like a chance meeting with a new friend whose so much on your page it isn’t funny.  I’m grateful for my so called ‘failed relationships’ – they was rich in lessons! I’ve learned more from the things that didn’t work, from the things that did. Im constantly amazed at the many kind beautiful souls who crossed my path, who were so incredibly loving, caring, understanding and generous. More recently, giving me a space to sleep (the couch, air bed, floor). What an amazing ride it’s been and I love you all! So farewell Brisbane, Im off on a new adventure…

“What if everything you’re going through is preparing you for everything you’ve asked for”

 

 

 

 

Juice Cleanse Day 6

My daughter and I have accomplished 6 days drinking fresh home juiced combinations of beetroot/basil/tomato/carrot/kale/celery/cucumber/red cabbage/lemon ginger… I apologise in advance to any friends or family to whom I have come across like an evangelist! It’s just that when you gain instant sparkly energy results from something as simple as juice fasting you kinda want your besties to get in on it! In my excitement I forgot that not everyone is ready to take this step. The last detox I did wasn’t a fast, so this has been an incredibly enlightening and very different experience – more challenging.  I’ve watched various documentaries such as  Food Matters, Fat Sick and Nearly Dead 1 & 2, David Wolfe talk on Superfoods (U tube) and Joel Fuhrman ( U.S Dr) advocating a micronutrient – rich diet, plant based (yet again). None of these health experts are mentioning adding meat to your diet… hmmmmm. Food for thought?

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The first 3 days were hellish. Hunger pangs, headaches, low energy. We took to going to bed at 8 pm to get to sleep (which by the way, was fantastic). Days 4, 5 & 6 – I bounced out of bed at 5.30 am and walked 3 kms. Walked another 2 kms when my daughter arrived home after work followed by laps in the pool… I’ve lost weight, gained more energy and have my chin back… My daughter’s looking great too…. much better than a week ago and it’s obvious she’s lost weight. But it’s not just about the weight, it’s the ENERGY that we are experiencing. Tiredness has vanished during the day and I feel lit from within.

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It’s difficult to fathom that the USA spends nearly $12 BILLION advertising lollies, drinks and fast foods yet only $9.55 MILLION on healthy eating?  I guess we need to start asking ourselves why is that so? (Professor Sunder Millar for those who grew up in the 70’s… was that even his name?) … Anyway my point is, I for one, (and all change starts with ourselves) consciously choose to take more control over my health, embrace a plant based diet once again, include these amazing juices (look at the colour of that!) and stay away from anything processed. This includes not burgers which I happen to enjoy…. However, tempeh on the other hand is fine because its fermented. Yay for tempeh!

There’s many reasons we resist change ….emotional, addictions, (especially to sugar) boredom. We cling onto our bad habits as if our very life depends on them… It’s tough sometimes! Recently I read a article about people who struggle to give up smoking, it’s not because they’re weak willed but because they like to feel in control of something, which made sense to me as an ex smoker.

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I’m doing a happy dance with this colourful vibrant, full of nutrients salad… My new goal is to continue drinking juices and slide into Joe Cross’s 10 day reboot program because then I can consume salads like this… with some added seeds, legumes, nuts….. Such a good feeling to start a new year off… in the direction that you want to continue to go. (and grow)…. Whatever we do now in regards to our health will gain results, either we reap the benefits down the track or pay the price, it really is up to us.

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